12 on the 12th

So I am trying to keep up with monthly pages for Alexandra - 12 photos on the 12th of every month. It was kind of a rocky start -- but I am working on it!

More scrapbooking pages now that I have tamed my stack of random supplies and photos. It took me a while to corral everything & to remember what my intentions were in printing things out or setting supplies aside. I have a LOT of catching up to do!

Another page for our May 2011 Disney album


This one uses photos from January 2012


And some of my favorite pictures from May 2011 Disney trip - Snow White was quite taken with her!

The Odd Life of Timothy Green

So, we just got back from watching The Odd Life of Timothy Green. I am glad I put tissues in my purse. We both needed them.

The film captured so many moments that we experienced as hopeful parents - the realization we were not going to have biological offspring - the ache upon seeing a happy child with a parent and wondering if that would ever be us - the opening of our hearts to wishing & knowing it would cause pain but we had to do it anyway, and the hoping-against-hope that this child was really and truly ours.

We cried at the beginning ... and we reached out for each other to hold hands and squeeze tight when there were moments we knew all too well. We sobbed at the end, feeling an echo of the broken heart ... and then cried again when the story came to its completion.

On the drive home, I confided that I really do very much want a 2nd child. For so many reasons, but the one so well demonstrated in the film - because I have enough love to share. We have enough of many things a child needs to grow into a fantastic being. I don't know how we can make it happen, but I'll keep holding the idea in my heart.

I read a quote somewhere that said something like, "If you dream of something every day, don't give up." One of the qualities Joe and Cindy wanted for Timothy was for him to never give up ... and in the end, that's what he taught them. So, I will wait and be poised for a 2nd dream to come true.