So then the question is just how much time & energy could I free up doing all of the legwork myself? The answer: not much! My life is very full, and I wouldn't want to miss out on Alexandra's development, on my relationship with husband, or on my professional career by spreading myself even thinner. So, as much as I'd like to be a mom of more than 1 child, I don't want it enough to sacrifice what feels like a pretty perfect life right now. So, if you've to the urge to ask The Question -- there's your answer!
I'd love for my daughter to have a sibling for a variety of reasons ... so if anyone reading this knows of someone who is considering an adoption plan, feel free to put that person in touch with me! We could certainly swing the legal fees, and over the long haul, we could afford RAISING a child ... just not coming up with an extra $20,000 in less than a year. And let's face it ... if we wait until we're 45 to adopt a 2nd child, that means when that child graduates high school, we'll be 63. And that just isn't fair to the kid. My own parents are almost 68, and one of them is contending with some major medical issues - I would NOT want to put that burden on a young adult barely out of college!
It's an odd position to be in ... wanting something, but not wanting to risk what I already have. I suppose it's because Alexandra is so very precious to me. We waited so very long to have her, I just don't want to miss out on anything, you know what I mean?
Okay, so inquiring minds have been satisfied ... and I've got my thoughts off my chest. I think that's probably enough for a random Saturday night. I'm going to go look at my cute, sleeping sweetie & then read for a bit in bed.