Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Journal Your Christmas, December 19th

I seem to be running a couple of days behind, no matter what I do, so I'll just run with it.

JYC12192010

Yesterday was really emotionally rough. I talked to a good friend & to my husband, about our adoption process. I feel tremendously supported by friends and family, but it's getting hard to "keep the faith." Well intended comments of "it'll happen" and "someday" just fall flat. I'm deeply wounded & I haven't yet figured my path out of this. I do have some more clarity that I need to stop trying so hard - there is absolutely no correlation between my expending energy and a baby arriving on our doorstep. I really am not a fan of being unable to influence the situation, but I am reminded that I've done all I can & need to let go. Easier said than done.

So, that's the reason for the simple plea to Santa.

3 comments:

scrapperjen said...

HUGS! Know that I think of you often and you are in my prayers. I hope Santa is good to you VERY soon!

BTW - I have been LOVING your Christmas layouts. Post as you have time.

Merry Christmas!

Mel said...

I love the page--and I hope for those sweet dreams during this time.

There's no words of comfort for the tough process that you signed up for. Any decision made is undoubtedly made out of the desire to bring to the life of a child. It's a loving decision but a truly difficult process....and as hard as it is to remind yourself that it's not about you, it comes to feel like it is.
I'm just wanting to remind you--It's not.

(((((((( HUGE hugs )))))))))))

Be extra good to you. And love each other lots.

jacquie said...

Mel said it all! Lots of {{{HUGS}}} and know I am thinking of you and praying for you often.